Paranoid

                                                                      Paranoid

I sat quietly on a bench. Passing street dwellers looked at me sarcastically.I hold a thousand turmoil in the liver.Afternoon wind waved my hair.
Some time ago I had a big fight with alex. People who have known me a long time. He passed and never want mlihat back againAt her lover who sat pensively quizzically, why should this?Piercing cold here once lonely heart. My tears fell soaked earth, tongue-tied, unable rain made for a move away.
"Heeeey .. Meldaaaa ..! You why daydreaming here? Why not go home? It was like night, pat someone on the back of my reverie interrupted, quickly remove the tears that I have not had time to dry out.
Melda: "jastin? What are you doing here? "Jastin: "mel you crying again?"Melda: "a .. Aac, aaah kok ga tin? Ga-napa why! "(Wipe tears).Jastin: "never mind you do not have to lie anymore, because alex definitely right!"Melda: "udahlah jastin, I'm tired of discussing this". (I got up to leave jastin in the park)
Jastin college friends who've known me four months, including a nice guy and helpful, but excessive attention makes me a little ilfeel
Sometimes I wonder why he was always there at the wrong time. As he deliberately spying. Or maybe my imagination. Like when alone and crying upset, empty. Loneliness by love story snaking. Maybe I'm being too stupid to let every man poison me with love, promises all of that makes me drift into deep wounds
I opened the gate so weak, I feel like I do not have the energy anymore, the story in today's tough clear of my power, I lean body lay on a mattress, the night wore on my mind more and more frantic and chaotic. Follow the wall clock ticking my veins, I tried to close my eyes, but as there was another voice calling my name, not to mention the more piercing the night air against my skin, smooth hair in my hand as if blown. And I began to shiver.
I got up and turned on the lights menyibakan blanket. A photograph at the top of my dresser fell hard for no reason. I stepped slowly picked up the photos on the floor. A photo of me and alex during sma. Future where love is so strong and I pull into the life of a true son alex lack of affection. Alex parents brutally killed by the robbers, alex lucky to be saved by his life for residents at the terrifying night.
Alex the life of a rich kid labeled. Since he inherited the wealth of his parents, but his attitude clearly indifferent and no smile always cold as customarily, I was present in his life that is slowly changing the character a little bad behavior, drugs, gambling, illegal racing is partly the story of the dark. I know how traumatic alex when he saw his own father's death and his mother were killed in a sadistic
I put the picture back, but somehow fell again, this time under the glass is broken berhambur floor. Piece of glass scratched my hand. I shouted into the bathroom. Blood on my hands all over the floor, I turned on the tap and wash the wound, when I lifted my face. I cried out loud muffled, I fell while a shadow alex on glass with bloody red eyes almost came out and severely damaged his face, his hair and his whole body burning destroyed. I was cornered in a corner room.
When I got up, saw again the shadow of the face was gone, I walked away ran out. When I opened the door, a hand grabbed my arm strong. Almost made me die standing.
"Heeey ..! Melda ... goodnight! "I almost fainted turns the figure is Rhena my best friend in college. "Eh ye ren ...! Evenings doing here? You do not know what time? I pointed to the clock. 12:03. In my hand "
"I knew he was ..., but this is serious!, Wire eh mel really serious ..." Rhena mearik me to bike without explanation.
Rhena took me to a hospital, and showed me the lifeless corpse that turns alex the motionless body with wounds all over his body. I cried hysterically, I was holding the hand of Alex, calling his name as hard as I could, suddenly a strong hand squeezed my hand alex corpse with bulging eyes, cause I was shocked and fell thud on the floor.
Rhena: "kenapaaa .. You mel?! "(Ran holding me) *Melda: "ta .. Ta .. By hand .. His hands move! "(Fear)Rhena: "aaaah ... Crazy you mel ... Where no body move ...! I know you're in shock and trauma but do not scare me, it's one o'clock in the morning and again in the morgue, and then you tell her to move, you're so crazy!Melda: "rhen up to you! But we have to get out of here, I'm afraid ...! "
Rhena me and ran down the hospital hallway, very quiet and tranquil atmosphere in here."Brruuuuukkk" I dropped a hard blow and Rhena, we fall in pain, I saw a vague figure jastin approached with batons in hand.
"Hahahaha, feel that women jal * ng ..! I will send you with your pretty friend's to hell, alex following the bastard who did not know appreciate a woman, and again I hate women like you rotten, weak without being able to fight, let yourself disturbed without listening to my attention ...! "Jastin spitting and hair pulling hard once , he sprayed gas fire in my eyes, cause I rebelled and shouted holding my eyes all was dark, I called on the name Rhena before I fell unconscious.
I heard some hand squeezed my hand tightly, I squeezed it through reply.
"Meldaaaa ... Are you awake?" Make a voice call my name I forced open my eyes but could not all was dark. Pain that is now afflicting both eyes
"What I'm blind .. Ren! I cried ""Lighten up it's me Rhena, you are blind, but the doctor said you got a donor, they do not tell the eye where they got it, and they will mengoperasimu later, you take it mel?Maybe beberpa weeks you can see the wide world. "
"Before Justin had hit a blunt object in his hand to the head. I saw a hand vaguely around the neck jastin and hard to break, it certainly alex, you may not believe it but the figure suddenly disappeared.
Before I answer."I'm sorry what's with this lady and certainly his melda Rhena ya? Sorry mba please Rhena signed. "I heard some people go. Check the condition and sent a letter to approach Rhena.
Today it has been almost 4 weeks I was in care, I can go home tomorrow.My condition was memukinkan to go home, with new eyes. But now I feel weird in both my eyes. It seemed nothing strange or wrong with my eyes,
What happened to me, especially my eyes this ...?
Rhena home.Rhena: "melda sorry ya? You do not get angry at me, because that would tell you this is weird, but they were forced, the doctors it ..!Melda: "What do you mean rhen? Do not make me confused lah ..! "Rhena: "it's actually her eyes alex, I do not know where they can consent, but they told me I only came to that agreement? Because it's just the only way you can see! "
Recognition Rhena length. Can give me the reason why I feel weird with my eyes right now.I'm just speechless speechless.I forced Rhena take me to the doctor in charge of the operation against me.Beautiful woman with glasses and a suit doctor called grace.Melda: "sorry bu I just want to know where the mother got permission to give alex to my eyes?"
Doctor grace flick through and clean the glasses. Stood facing the window. "Ma .. Sorry ... Sorry Ms. melda, but Alex himself who came and wanted it. "And .. It happened a few hours before you are blind. He said you have to live with her. Because he loves you so deeply, you are only able to evoke the spirit of his life. "Oh .. Yes? This is a letter as proof I'm not a dream .. ". Doctor grace handed a paper with signatures alex.
Live with both my eyes
Do not be afraid I'm here
Believe me I will not let anyone touch your body remembers it.
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I had my room down the hall. Very quiet, my parents were abroad. I was not very comfortable at all with this eye. I can see in the dark. And down the entire hallway with closed eyes.Suddenly I was in the bathroom. When I look in the mirror. A shadow appears alex but somehow this time I did not feel scared.
Her eyes empty. Without a smile. His face was badly damaged. I touched the glass but could not. I want to hug the body alex but could not.When I look back. He stood right in front of my eyes just a few inches. I tried to back away. I was surprised but my pace seemed restrained.
Alex tried to grab me. But can not, he wanted to hug me but again failed. I walked over and stood in front of him. He looked not understand. Without sound without crying.
"Alex dear why I could not hold even for a moment. I missed one, I apologize for the incident in the park. I'm lonely dear. I belong to you but I feel I have nothing. You did not romantic. You never appreciate me. What happens unfortunately. What you come back to pick me up. Why are you silent, try to see my face. I'm a lover not your enemy. I appreciate. "I screamed as loud as no answer
Alex reversed his body and through me. Go disappeared somewhere.
Morning.Today's weird, I was awakened by the sudden alarm sounds for no reason. Not to mention the open window itself causes the sun hit my eyes. I opened my eyes and alex was in front of me. Wanted to kiss my forehead but can not, the same as yesterday with no expression. Without a sound, I went wherever he was always there. Makes me uncomfortable.
On campus"Heey .. Rhena alex ya. ". I introduced Alex who stood beside me on Rhena and ririn friend Rhena
"Ya you crazy. Still traumatized ya? Never mind melda .. No need to scare me again ..! Rhena look around me and hold my forehead several times. Maybe he still does not believe this if I did not lie. While alex. Still stood beside me without expression.Ririn: "why the hell weird friend!" * Bebisik in ear Rhena *
"Aaah .. Never mind if you do not see it, let's go before all people regard me crazy ..!. I grabbed the hand Rhena pulled away from eye sight began to feel strange to me.While ririn see the confused.
At home."How can I communicate with you if you just shut up .. And silent ... With your wild eyes "I'm getting annoyed because surely Rhena and her already considers me crazy. "So what only I can see?. Kenappaaaaa?
Suddenly the book on my desk open themselves so quickly. And pen from my shirt pocket float by itself. And danced on top of a legal pad. I came over and read the writings
"Because my eyes"
"Haaaaah ... So it's just me who can see your eyes because of this. I shouted loud at my face in the mirror.
An article appeared in the paper again
"What you do not like it?"
I reversed body and wanted to explain but the shadow was gone. Till late at night I still can not sleep. Since my eyes in surgery I could only resting 20 to 30 minutes because it is always in the act jahilnya alex wake with the alarm or accidentally dropped me out of bed. I knew he wanted me to always accompany him, but I'm getting bored too. My mind began to saturate.
"Alex sorry ya? Not that I do not like the eyes. But you're scaring me, people would not believe I could see sosokmu. This fact may have been almost 2 months passed. I could not continue to live alone. "I closed the book. And sleep. But I can hear the book is opened up to a few hours. I'm sure Alex was reading my writing.
And the first time I slept long. Strange indeed.
Tomorrow Tuesday 04-06-13Kriiiiiing ... Kriiiiing ... Paaaagiiiiii ... Paggggi ... Paaaagiiii ...
Alarm goes off in my room screaming loud, I pretended not to wake up, pull up on a longI bounced interesting fall out of bedStill in a state of conscious yet.I open my eyes and look around my room is so beautiful. Room window open and sway by itself. Above the ceiling filled with butterflies in colorful paper. Swaying in the wind blowAs if to fly back and forth,
On the table was a cardboard box shaped like a heart. I opened it turns out it is a cake and next to him wrapped in a necklace. I felt my neck. It turns out my usual necklaces using already be in the box. "Braaaak." Quickly closed all windows with closed curtains. Cause the dark.
From the darkness of the night a candle lit in follow some candles. More and more. Small candles that floated and fell to the ground to form a word.
"Happy birthday my love meldha, i want to marry you"
I shut my mouth. It turned me on today's birthday and coinciding with the anniversary of me and alex. "Why I can not forget them." Thought
Moments later extinguished candles back by itself. Changed by the presence of alex. Wear long pants and a black jacket blush. But the face and body damage can not deny, however, little looks gorgeous covered by a jacket
I ran like touch,But can not be touched. My head hit the glass. When I lifted my face. Alex was in my face a few inches. Startled me half to death. But I hold my fear. Alex I'm afraid to be disappointed and passed away.
Alex tried to kiss me on the lips. But could not. Several times he tried but did not succeed. I stood beside her eyes shut. I hope this time he can touch me or kiss me on the lips just delete Rinduku that I can not lie this time.
I opened my eyes and saw Alex standing behind me with a sad face. Pensive stare at the beauty of the dancing clouds up there.
I stepped in front of him penetrating. I looked into her eyes for a long time. Scary faces do not scare me anymore. If only Rhena, grace or even ririn know. They will memfonisku crazy as this.
There is no sign of happiness on his face. He wants to wipe away my tears, but could not. She clenched her fist sign of disappointment. He opened his mouth showing teeth black uneven. Plus add crushed face haunted atmosphere. In the follow glass window without cause strong shaking and the glass shattered all over. Clock on the wall. Alarm goes off and everything falls falling apart.
I shut my mouth and shook his head. Alex disappeared on follow light slowly began to illuminate the back of my room.
I look around at all messy. Shards of glass scattered everywhere. Alarm and wall clocks memories of alex also destroyed. I fell limp. Holding my head is getting dizzy.
On campusI approached the grace and Rhena was chatting on a park bench. From the overnight figure alex has not yet appeared. May be disappointed or ... Maybe like Eid with his family in another world. I chuckled to myself imagine.
Rhena: "heeey it meldha grace?" * Points *Grace: "eh .. Eh .. Mel wrote Where? "Two days off without a word anyway, why your hp off. I phone many times you do not connect, you're what's wrong? Kelihatnnya really messed up "Meldha: "i. I.. He soriii. I mention many affairs, could not ask for help? "If necessary you two come too ya.?Rhena & grace: "Where?"Meldha: "I want you both in my house all the same nginap ririn doctor. I want to show you something. Important. "
Rhena and grace stare, looked at each other with each other do not understand what I mean.
I am. Rhena and grace to the hospital.Once we forced. Ririn doctors would also top my offer. I intend to tell them. There alex figure in my house so that they do not consider me crazy.
I stood in the room alone. Now at 8:30 pm. Should doctors ririn, Rhena and grace already here according to the agreement. "Kriiiiiiiiing ... Kriiiiiiiiing". The sound of incoming telephone"Meldha rich and grace I could not come. My bike suddenly flame itself and goes crashing the gate. Now the conditions are not suitable to be used. "Telephone in turn Rhena. I pensive lay on the floor.
"Kriiiiing ... Kriiiiiiiiing" an incoming phone again, but this time from doctors ririn."Sorry meldha. It looks like the mother could not come .. Car tire damaged all mothers without cause. Mother had been ready to go when you want the starter, his car instead of smoke ". Sound ririn doctor with fear
I fell limp. Let the doctor talk ririn own .. "It's definitely your right alex .. Where are you, why are you doing this .. ". I shouted for alex.
Of dark alex evening was standing in front of me. His eyes bulged. And without a smile. He threw me on the floor tejatuh. His eyes were scary. Alex was furious
Alex shaking hands makes me lifted and floated right in front of him. I could feel his breath. Grabbed my neck in my legs lifted. Makes me wriggle. My breathing started to disappear. Once powerful grip.
Alex threw my body fell on a glass table. Pen started dancing quickly on paper.
"Do not mengulaginya again""You make me angry"
Of the incident. I be covered once, a long time I was going crazy. Alex has always been there but I felt empty. I felt all my soul imprisoned. Slowly even my relationship with Rhena and grace to be breaking down, they think I'm crazy.
On campus and grace Rhena damian introduce a fairly good-looking, I mean they let me know I'm forgetting alex. But they do not understand the truth. They make me.I try to live with damian.The second week started no problem.Alex appeared with his face down on the sluggish side. When I and damian enjoy a meal at a restaurant a & w (various warteg) alex make a half dead with shame damian spilled a drink into his face. The food turned into maggots. What's more when alex so damian damian foot binding must occur in ekskalator. Causing fractures in added again counted his broken leg broken from the bone. Damian in conveyance taken to hospital
I menantap alex angry. I was furious. Alex appeared suddenly beside me and looked at me inside. Her tears fell. I slapped him but could not. I yell scream at him, to make people around me crazy mengiraku
I saw the writing on the tv screen.
"Why do you want to replace me with another what my fault"
Alex attract me and throw my body in between the seats that line. Make the visitors ran away one by one. I stood up. Pointing and ranting but it will only add to my ignorance. All eyes looked and looked surprised. Security guard came trying to get rid. Alex moving my hand and led my hand slapped cheek hard to guard rotated 180 degrees, the guard fell dead.
I limp weak. All the people screaming hysterically and probably mad at me. Alex threw a chair and dropped all before him. Tv. Plate. Clothes. Knick knacks throwing in making all the mess here.
I shouted to stop his actions begged alex everyone thinks I'm crazy. Because I talked and shouted themselves.
I walked away, I know all my efforts in vain. I ran back and forth along the crowded vehicle. Honking everywhere.
"Braaaakk" a bus is running hard hit me hard. I bounced beberpa meters. Hysterical cries echoed across the road. I did not move.
I like seeing the white light berlahan all was dark. When I opened my eyes. I've been in a hospital with my legs and arms apart. I cried and screamed but the rebel rope and bandages all over my body hold. In addition to angle my head a few pieces of ornamental flowers. And alex emerged from under my bed.I shouted loud and cursing expel him. But Alex just stared at me wistful silence. I wonder what's in his brain.
The door opened and grace Rhena at me with his mouth open, as if they could not believe that my condition without legs and hands, wrap in bandages and infusion devices are made numb, they bertaanya wondering.
I feel pain all over my body. Tersendak breath. I was forced to breathe. However difficult. When I force my eyes open. Alex was on top of me and shut me up fast at all.
"Ririn doctor please gawaaaaaaaat"
Rhena and grace I heard shouting and footsteps running down the hall.
Until my eyes finally closed for good. My soul is liftedOf the tortured dead body.The last thing I remember crying toned Rhena and grace throughout the room, to the open arms alex embraced my body.
"'m Done waiting"Alex said as he tightened his embrace.
Graduate
Short Story Essay: Alfred PandieFacebook: alfredpandie [-at-] yahoo.com